I could have loved you, but you didn’t want me to.

We never had our first date, regrettably, I turned down lunch that day. You extended an open invitation with no expiration. I took for granted the time I had to wait.

On the day I sat across from you, mesmerized by the instant connection as I gazed into those brown eyes. I felt the butterflies, not knowing the feelings would last, and the moment would pass.

Over a short period of time, I saw a glimpse of a man, my heart seemed to remember from another space, place and time.

I wanted to love you, but you didn’t want me to.

In the exploration of our passions we intertwined our hands, sadly it was my heart you refused to hold, if only you had taken the time to explore beyond my body to the depths of my mind and soul.

I wanted to love you, infinitely beyond restriction and the concept of time. The flame never ignited a fire, my heart beats slowly from the lack of desire, telling me I must let go.

Christy Angelette is part of the Generation X generation. She is a mother of three amazing sons and is a southern Queen born and raised in Jackson, Mississippi. Currently she is living and healing in the same place. She has had a love for reading since the age of six. As a teen, she began writing poems as an expression of feelings that followed abuse, depression and love. She is living with a diagnosis of bipolar and PTSD and is a survivor of childhood abuse, trauma and spousal abuse. She has worked as a LPN nurse for 12 years. She is also a lover of Christ and believes that “unbalanced” is the First of a trilogy. She is working on a novel that will highlight mental illness and abuse in multiple forms, as well as civil rights being broken on a mental health level. She is living proof that you can overcome and live a mentally “BALANCED” life. She triumphs through her Faith and her fight for life.