I have two sides.
The one I show and the one I hide.
She is the alternate version of me, my ride or die.
The Bolder, stronger, confident, outspoken one, who at any cost will protect me.
I’m the quiet one, calm and shy.
This is who I choose to be.
Living a life of solitude with the companion of peace.
I have a country girl average look.
She wears heels.
I wear glasses.
I think I’m ugly.
She’s sassy and classy.
A beautiful monster lives inside my mind.
I’m unbalanced, bipolar and so is she.
Since we were little girls, from the very beginning
Our world was full of darkness and despair.
Up and down. round and round.
They say the mind of the mentally ill is the devil’s playground.
She’s attracted to the charmingly aggressive and abusive guy.
Yet I’m the lonely one who cries when they walk all over her and away.
She’s the fun party girl, always on the go.
I prefer to be alone at home.
Surfing the channels or getting lost in a good book.
She’s the hottest chick strutting around this town.
The God I serve rose up within me and shut her down.
On the 8th day of January late after midnight.
I got out of my bed and onto my knees pleaded to Jesus for the release of the torment in me.
My mind has evolved.
No longer am I tormented as she runs it down.
No longer am I my mother’s victim.
Jesus touched me.
I’m a survivor of abuse and an unfortunate life.
He heals from within, mind, body and soul.
Restoring what had been stolen.
Jesus saved me.
Instead of two minds.
He is repairing what was broken and made me whole.